Prince or no Prince..

bluefire12003 @ 2009-03-22T22:25:00

2009-03-23T02:29:25Z

I thought that I was done with livejournal. This is because I thought I had a husband that would listen to me and support me. I thought I had someone that wouldn't basically tell me to deal with it. I thought I had someone who wouldnt get mad at the reason why I was so upset, even though it is a very good reason to be upset. I wished he would understand how I feel sometimes and not make me feel like it is a petty reason. I wished I had someone to talk to that would just listen to me for once. I am starting to feel like were not right for each other..I dont feel supported..I guess this means that I am back..

2009..

2009-01-11T05:10:12Z

First post for 2009.. Not really much to update.. Bought a car..and a house..close on the house on tuesday...Anniversary is on monday..Havent been working.. been taking care of hannah..graduate in december. No more school for me..

39 weeks..1 more left

2008-09-15T17:59:37Z

Well a week from today is my due date.. My next dr appointment is wednesday and I am going to ask to be induced on sunday if I dont have her before then.. I wouldnt ask if I didnt live 30 miles from the closest hospital.. Usually I am here by myself because everyone works..so..there are a few other reasons as well..

Adams mom has skin cancer, and her surgery is on my due date..She didnt throw me a baby shower yet, because we werent sure of the gender and wont be until I have the baby.. Another convenience is everyone has this sunday off so I know that adam wont miss his baby being born because of work..

Adam and I are still looking into houses.. We found one we liked, but its not in our price range.. They lower the price every month though, so hopefully it will go down enough to where we can afford it, without someone else buying it first..We thought about renting an apartment while waiting on the house thing, but we decided it would just be a waste of money and we would have to move our stuff twice..

So, we are staying at Adams parents house until we see what happens with the house thing.. We still go look at other houses, but I wont settle on a house just because we need one..I want to invest in something we both like.. And we both like that one, so hopefully it works..

It sucks having all of the baby stuff set up, without the baby..I hate waiting.

Other than that, I have been busy with school.. Right now my gpa is 3.93.. so I am doing well.. I am trying to stay ahead in case my water breaks and I am unable to turn in my assignments on time..

Update

2008-07-24T16:59:08Z

It's been a long time since I have last posted.

We have been busy working, and me going to school. We are looking into houses, and have a lead on one. We hope this one works out. I want to start the nursery now dang it.

I am 31.5 weeks pregnant. Only 8.5 more to go if I go full term. I am not sure because I had a dr appointment on Tuesday and she said the baby is already head down. I thought so, but wasnt sure.

My fingers and feet are swollen and I am reducing my work schedule, if ever they will work with me on that. I am almost to the point of quitting.

My mother in law wants to have the baby shower after the baby is born to be sure of the gender.. And I dont really care because I have a lot of stuff for either anyways from people just giving me stuff.

That is about all that I have going on at this time.

bluefire12003 @ 2008-05-01T09:54:00

2008-05-01T13:55:46Z

Whats new with Monica?

2008-04-10T14:50:53Z

I went to my 2nd gyno appointment on tuesday.. I got to listen to the babies heartbeat.. It was 150 bpm. =D On April 29th, I will get to see what I am having, and I cant wait. With work and school and homework, it should help pass the time.

I've been upset since yesterday.. My mom made me cry at first.. Because she said she is hurt that I didnt invite her to my graduation and how she feels robbed. I told her that I felt like she didnt deserve to go. I reminded her of the last thing she said to me when I left to walk to ad's house.. She said,"If you get pregnant, dont come crying to me." She said this because she didnt like AD because she wore a short tank top in the summertime and my mom said she was too boy crazy.. But yeah.. Anyways.. I told her that she robbed me of the last 10 years of my life, having to raise my siblings and missing all the dances and sleepovers.. She said that she was sorry, she never went to hers, and she didnt want me to make mistakes.. Yeah..I lectured her on taking risks and how going through all of that is going to make me 100 times the mother that she ever dreamed of being... She told me be careful theres a lot of weirdos out there.. W/e. She told me shes talking to this one guy who lives in colorado and he asked her to marry him over the internet.. shes such a hypocrite, I cant stand it sometimes..

Later that day, my sister calls and tells me that dad cant take the 13th and 14th of may off because he has to work.. I wanted him to because adam and i got a late bday surprise for him and wanted to take him to smackdown/ecw at the van andel to see the undertaker.. I left a voicemail for him to call me back after he gets out of work.. Never did.. So I call again and then I talk to him telling him he has a good way of getting ahold of people when they ask for it.. hes just like.. oh.

He told me his work schedule goes through June and he couldnt get the days off..I asked him if he could switch with someone, and he says I dont think so.. He isnt even going to try.. He asked me if I could just take my brother luke.. Adam and I spent $323 to take my dad to see the undertaker, and he has the audacity to tell me to take my brother instead.. We wouldnt even have spent that money on tickets if it wasnt for that reason to take him to se the undertaker.. We wanted to do something nice for him..And then he asks for us to bring his computer because the other one wont work and then asks if I want to talk to julie.. All he ever cares about is his stupid computer.. Not even his own daughter..

I lived 30 minutes away from him, he never called, never came over.. nothing.. Unless he wanted something.. He used to say he never had my number.. I programmed it in his phone.. Still.. nothing. Never calls and asks how I am doing, hows school, the baby.. nothing.. w/e.. I am done.. Adam and I are asking his boss and fiance if they want to go with us.. I am sick of crying over lost causes..

Out of all the parents in the world, how did I get stuck with the worst 2..

13 weeks

2008-03-17T18:11:00Z

I made it to 13 weeks!

I am taking bvitamin and unisom to help with my morning sickness. It seems to work. =) My next appointment is on the 8th and then hopefully I can tell if its aboy or girl and start making my registry! =D

11 weeks

2008-03-03T08:29:40Z

I am 11 weeks today. Have very little morning sickness now which is great. I have my first gyno appointment tomorrow so I am excited/nervous about that.

Spent the weekend at my dads and had dinner at my grandmas. It was nice to see them again.

I have a bunch of adam and i's laundry to do today so I will be pretty busy with that.. But being it 3:30 in the morning and I dont have to work, I am going to go back to bed! =D

9 weeks

2008-02-18T20:21:33Z

I am 9 weeks today. Getting up there. Gyno appointment two weeks from tomorrow..31 more weeks to go if I make it full term.

Got my dog and my cat spayed today too.. Not any fun.. Sandy doesnt want to lay down and relax and kiki is attacking her sutures.. She is making me mad because she got all of her shots today and is walking around drunk but wont lay down and rest so I put her in her cage...

Going back to school.. Just have to find my 2006 w2's and tax information...

Early childhood development.

I just had 3 days off of work and I dont want to go back tomorrow! I wont have another day off til saturday.. =/

Happy VDAY

2008-02-14T15:44:42Z

Well today is not only one of most celebrated days of the year, it is one of the most memoriable. Not only because it is Valentines day, but because it wouldve been Christines 21st birthday.

I am sure she would be making the very best of it if she were still with us.

I was trying to find a poem or something, but just couldnt find the right one that spoke to me.

SO, happy birthday Christine.

8 weeks

2008-02-11T22:25:55Z

I am 8 weeks today and had my first appointment. They weighed me, took my blood pressure, made me answer a bunch of questions, had me pee in a cup and then took my blood.

They confirmed the pregnancy. So in 4 weeks from today I plan on having my second appointment where I bet they will want to take a look up there... I hope not.. but I am prepared. lol

I dont want to tell his parents.. =/

7 weeks

2008-02-04T19:10:01Z

I am 7 weeks pregnant today. All today I had neasea and ended up throwing up... I am glad it didnt happen in front of customers.

I get to find out the gender two days before my bday which is like the best bday present ever!

I got this widget thing on my lj profile and it shows what my baby looks like and how far along I am. Pretty neat, so check it out if you want.

bluefire12003 @ 2008-01-22T18:15:00

2008-01-22T23:16:51Z

Well I cant use the insurance until the 3rd of february because supposedly thats when I will get my insurance card.. By then I will be 7 weeks.. I just hope it will all be ok.

4 weeks and 6 days

2008-01-19T23:11:55Z

Apparently I am 4 weeks and 6 days pregnant because they count from your last period and it has been 34 days.. So..

I just got insurance through adams work, I just have to find out how soon I can use it and where and then I will schedule my first appointment. Yay I am excited.

bluefire12003 @ 2008-01-18T18:31:00

2008-01-18T23:37:19Z

I am about 4 weeks pregnant today! I just cant wait for all of my tiredness to subside I feel so tired lately and have to take naps like everyday. Good thing is I dont have any morning sickness, but I do have headaches. Its just interesting looking online at what my baby looks like right now. Basically doesnt look like a baby until 8 weeks. I have insurance on me now through adams work, but I dont know how soon I can use it since I just got it today and what places will accept his insurance..

Other than finding that out after he gets out of work tomorrow, I can probably schedule a first appointment on Monday or something. I am so excited. I know it wont really kick in until I an hear its heartbeat and see it on the screen when I have an ultrasound. =P

So I am back from my honeymoon

2008-01-16T19:21:54Z

I will have pictures when they get developed, but yeah we just got back from our honeymoon. We went to west branch and stayed at a cabin that had a fireplace and a jacuzzi and watched a bunch of movies and stuff.

I would like to announce that I am pregnant. I had this urge to test and I got two positives from two different brands. So, there is a baby in our future. =P

I have a few things to do before I can go to the doctors though. I have to get myself maternity care through adams work and I have to give the papers to the courthouse to change my last name, and get a new license.. Which sucks because I turn 21 in may which means I will have to get a new one again within a few months time.. but yeah.. Now its just looking into the better job thing, and house in Illinois. =D

My mom is the only one I have told so far and she is happy to be a soon to be grandma.

=D

2008-01-13T14:59:51Z

Well, I did it.

Finally got married. I am very happy, and we all had a good time. We leave for our honeymoon today, I am excited. =D Were going to have a good time reading all of the cards we got. =D

I will put pictures on myspace when I get them developed. =D

I am going to take a pregnancy test on tuesday. Cant wait. So far, so good.

One week, 2 days

2008-01-03T08:00:14Z

Well a week from saturday and I will be sharing my fiances last name. I am nervously excited right now, but also very much happy. Just counting down the days! I finally got to put his ring on his finger after his knuckle has been swollen for over a month. He cant take it off now, but thats ok haha.

Basically, all I have to do now is to go food shopping. Everything else, I have people taking care of. I am checking things off of the list and it feels great. Things are coming together, other than we need to check into a DJ.

We're now trying for a baby. Other than how it sometimes feels planned when we have to do the deed, I try to keep it interesting. I'm hoping.

But as soon as the weddings over were going to check into moving to Illinois. We may come back eventually, but its what were going to have to do.

ugh..

2007-12-29T16:07:55Z

Sometimes, living with your in-laws is alright. Other times, like today.. I wished I didnt..I'm not going to go into details. I think that pretty much sums it up.

In the life of Monica...

2007-12-04T14:36:07Z

I am just bored and waiting for my download to finish so I thought I might as well do something in the meantime.

Life is going alright, I am working and thinking about a career change and where to get my education for that..

I am working on the final touches of Adam and I's wedding next month. Wow, I cant believe it. 39 more days! I cant wait. I know where were going for our honeymoon though. There's a cabin that's like 2 hours from here and were staying there for a few days. It has a jacuzzi and a fireplace. It's going to be awesome.

Adam and I decided that were going to start trying for a baby in January, pretty excited about that as well. Since I work around baby clothes I always have to say when I see something cute lol.. so hopefully everything goes to plan.

bluefire12003 @ 2007-11-06T09:46:00

2007-11-06T14:51:22Z

It's been so long since I have last posted, and since I am bored I suppose I can spare to update.

I recently started working again after taking a couple months off. I am still looking for a job in my field. I am going to start looking out of state again soon. Probably when it gets closer to the wedding date..Speaking of which, we basically have everything covered and being worked on other than how much food we need to get..

I cant believe that in 67 more days, I change my last name forever. lol

Its strange looking at everything that has happened between then and now and how Adam and I are both stronger because of it..We went through what most couples go through AFTER they are married, but since we lived together for 2 years, we are in better shape than most people..

I think I have overcome more in the last two years than I have my entire life. Irony? I dont think so.

bluefire12003 @ 2007-06-30T19:30:00

2007-06-30T23:35:56Z

Dear livejournal:

After all of this time, I find myself sitting here updating you again. Not because I have anything new to say particularily, but because I can no longer turn to anybody to tell them how I feel. I do not expect anybody to read this, but I find that it is important for me to vent my feelings in some way shape or form.

I once had a diary, and used to write in it often, but then I found a reason not to. The reason was that I had a person I could turn to and tell everything I wanted to, the person who was supposed to be my open door.. The person who was supposedly not supposed to hurt me so many times and find nothing wrong with it until I brought it up.

I find myself turning to you livejournal, because you do not have feelings or thoughts about the things that I say to you, and although you are not opinionated, I value that you do not make me cry or upset and make me feel like I cannot tell you certain things.

Once I have written things inside of you, I feel just as well as if I have already told someone. Except without the headache of what if they dont agree with what youre doing, or who you are? See my dear livejournal, you do what noone else does. You accept me for who I am, who I was and who I will be in the future. You do not judge me on what I say, what I have said, and what I will say in the future..

If only you can teach my boyfriend to do the same.

Update?

2007-03-08T01:24:58Z

So.. Yeah.. I havent updated in a long time.. But dont think that this post is going to cover everything thats happened between the last post and now.. All I ever do is work and sleep now that I am on break from school.. I only have 2 classes this quarter which is good because I can do a good job in them.. Not that I will have any more motivation because I just want to be done already.. I havent learned anything there anyways..such a waste..In the meantime, I am working saving up for a car and such..

Adam and I are doing alright.. Sometimes it doesnt feel like we are, but I think every relationship is like that.. We live together so its bound to happen.. He is my best friend though and we have been through so much.. We will be moving up north when I graduate in september and save up money for a house and look around for jobs that are in our field..Were going to get back into the church and find out who were going to be the rest of our lives.. Then we'll get married and have babies! lol..

bluefire12003 @ 2007-01-17T18:50:00

2007-01-17T23:51:36Z

So I would just like to say that Adam told me he loved me and that made me very happy because ive waited a year to hear it. Literally. I love him back. =) And were going to get married someday and have BABIES! haha

bluefire12003 @ 2007-01-16T06:40:00

2007-01-16T11:47:11Z

Well to update..Monica almost had a trip to the hospital..I took a couple of my medicines together, but one of the pills causes rapid heartbeat and since I took two of them I couldnt hardly breathe. Adam said there were a couple of times that I quit responding to him. He said I would be breathing loudly and then I would just quit breathing altogether and he would try to tickle me and I wouldnt do anything..I am extremely ticklish, and I didnt even move. I can not even remember him doing that or me not responding to him. He wanted to take me to the hospital but I told him no...

Well I am alright now, except I have had a major cold for the past two days and no medicine seems to break it..

Later today Adam and I are going to pick up a few things and then were going to go to pando. For those of you who do not know what pando is, its a winter sports park. Were going tubing. =) Should be fun. We dont have to work tonight either so we get all day/night with each other! I am happy =)

I have fallen wayyy behind in my homework however. I need to get back on track so I can graduate on time in June, but I have senioritis.. =/